It's been about a month since my beloved Omer passed suddenly. (Massive heart attack.) The corner said he didn't EVEN feel it, which makes me feel better in some ways.
As some of you know, THIS isn't the first time I've lost a S.O., and it's been quite a shock to my system.
I AM eating and sleeping enough and taking care of myself. For the first two weeks I stayed SUPER busy and didn't stop, PARTLY because I didn't want to experience my feelings.
I'm doing therapy every Tuesday for a while and it helps me. I'm definitely reaching out and taking with friends and family. I'm working part time still, AND my fur babies have been closer to me and more affectionate in a lot of ways.
His DGD Courtney and her boyfriend Zack have been amazing! They're REALLY growing up through this. Not only have they been helping with bills and chores, but they've been making sure I have some dinner and clean clothes for work and boxes and JUST being there for me and each other. Making sure the cats stay fed and watered when I was not feeling myself and making sure the water stays dripping when it's cold and so forth.
AND YOU, CHERRIES! The out pouring of love has been VERY MUCH appreciated! The cards and calls and messages and emails and gifts have been in abundance!
Now, yes, I expected SOME to reach out, as by now I'm close with some with you, but the UNEXPECTED out pour has touched my heart sooooo MUCH!!!!! The beautiful notes and cards, I MEAN you guys!
I'm so grateful to my ACOT family! I don't have ALL the words to express my gratitude - I JUST KNOW that y'all have helped me feel a little bit more alone during this time. Y'all helped me with listening and understanding and sympathizing and JUST being there! I KNOW sometimes we ALL experience a
major loss, sometimes several over the course of our lives. My world has tilted and y'all are there for me as I try to navigate my new world, and I'm JUST so grateful AND blessed!
Love to ALL of you!